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[Aries Monroe]

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Aries had yet another sleepless night by her self in the large mansion on the edge of the forest in Forks Washington. Aries usually never slept because of the nightmares that would occupy her dreams, she could never get away from them no matter how hard she tried so she just didn't sleep, she got enough sleep when she went to the hospital every day anyways. She had chemo at the forks hospital which she had started a few days ago. Today was going to be her first day as a sophomore at forks high school. She was nervous and she didn't even know why. She knew no one would like her, she was the depressed new girl, that didn't really stick her in with the popular people so she didn't even try, she dressed how she normally would every day because she didn't need to impress any one. She was figuring she would screw up and get sent away again, she was so used to no one wanting her that it hardly phased her.

She tugged on a pair of black skinny jeans and a gray and white stripped long sleeved shirt that hid the multiple scars up and down her arms. It was a frequent thing she did, it made her feel better. She tried to stop but that didn't really work well for her because she just relapsed twice as hard. Self mutilation was her biggest problem and her biggest flaw. She almost never wore short sleeved shirts because she didn't want any one to see the scars that laced her arms. Some old and fading, some still new and tender to touch. It was a daily thing for her, along with the many suicide attempts that ran threw her head on a constant bases. She couldn't help it, she was depressed all the time and the chemo just mad it worse. She hated her life and she wanted to end it more then anything but something or some one always stopped her and it sucked. She was so pathetic that she couldn't even kill her self right.

Walking out the door she pulled her black hoodie on and flipped the hood up over her dark brown straight hair. She didn't like all the rain that poured down non stop in Forks. Climbing into the drivers side of her black Lexus. She didn't like the car and she didn't have her lisence yet her new parents insisted that she drove it. They werent even ever home, her new dad was always in Hollywood and her new mom was in Paris so it was like she was living alone. She was always alone, she liked it better then having to move to a different foster home every few months. That was one of the reasons she was starting as a 16 year old sophomore, she missed to much school switching and not really caring. When she parked she noticed that classes had all ready started and she really didn't want to go to Math. So she decided to side track into the empty music room.

She had her jacket pulled tight around her and she set her back pack down next to the piano bench. Music was the one thing that made her feel better, the one thing she could use to express her self no matter what. It was always there for her. She tugged off her jacket and rolled her sleeves up. She ran a finger over some of the newer cutts and winced a little with a sigh. She was surprised she wasn't put in a mental hospital yet, she was to self destructive. She placed her hands on the piano key's and started to sing. The door was cracked and she sort of hoped that no one walked by because by the time she was done, warm salty tears were rolling down her delicate pale cheeks. She hated her life.



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ROLEPLAYING WITH:[/color] Edward Cullen
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[BEE]

SUCH A LONELY DAY, AND ITS MINE

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the most loneliest day in my life. such a lonely day should be banned.
it's a day that I can't stand. the most loneliest day of my life.
such a lonely day shouldn't exist. it's a day that I'll never miss

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Edward, sitting in his car, was waiting. For what exactly he wasn't sure. He knew though, that he didn't want to be here today. School was an necessary evil- one that he would rather not ever have to deal with, truth be told. Today, he would much rather be at home. Bella was there. She was still unable to come to school, they all just weren't ready to risk it. So for the time being she was "'sick," she couldn't be here and so instead they were taking her all the work that she needed. It would probably be hard to swing something like this usually, but they were the Cullens. Carlisle Cullen, the best Doctor in Forks, was insisting that Bella be bed ridden. And who could say no to the handsome Doctor, especially when he took the time to come down to the school and explain the entire situation to them. Edward was both relieved that this had worked, and yet not shocked in the least. Not many people would say no to the people in his family.

Edward slipped his keys into his pocket before forcing himself to step out of his Volvo and gently closing the door behind him. His hands rested in his gray jacket pockets, that with the added weight, now hung at his sides. He walked through the school feeling lonely to be honest. He hadn't been away from Bella since the accident. He had spent almost every moment of his days with her, and now he couldn't. He'd asked Carlisle to lie for him as well, he didn't want to be here, but his father had insisted that he be at school. He hadn't argued, nothing good had ever come of it. Besides, Bella hadn't been happy about the prospect of his arguing, and he hadn't wanted to upset her. He'd given in, and along with his brothers and sisters, had come back to school.

Classes had already started, Edward knew that much. That was probably why he'd stayed in his car for so long, he hadn't wanted to go to class today. He just couldn't bring himself to. He knew what would be taught, and he knew that he wouldn't be able to stand listening to the constant drone of his English teacher's voice. He didn't want to stand it today. And so he would skip it, but where would he go? The school wasn't that large. He would leave all together, but he knew that if Carlisle or Esme found out... they'd be disappointed, to say the least. If his brothers and sisters could be here today, then so could he. With a stoic look on his handsome face he began to walk around the school, though he made suret hat he avoided any other students or teachers.

It was as he was doing this that he heard music. The piano. He loved the piano, it was his instrument. He had been playing for nearly one hundred years, and the siren call could always still capture him. He followed the sound, and listened out for who ever it was that was playing. The thoughts of the girl were unfamiliar, her voice was new. He didn't know this human. He knew that he should turn around, it was pointless to go and see her. He didn't need to know her, or why it was exactly that her thoughts seemed to be drenched in pain. He knew that sort of pain, it was heart shatteringly painful. And for whatever reason, it called to him. The music she played was so sad, and full of pain. But it was beautiful all the same.

He slowly moved toward the door and pushed it open. He saw her finally, and though he wasn't completely sure what to do he decided to walk in. Her voice had stopped singing, and her fingers had stopped playing. Now though something new had started. He could smell the strong scent of tears, the salty smell was one that was strong to his vampire senses. He felt like an intruder, but he couldn't make himself stop. Her thoughts were so depressing, and so tragically painful. She was so young though, how could she feel things so deeply? What was it that made her so sad? He wanted to know, for some obscure reason, he couldn't make himself turn around. He moved into the room, trying to make some sort of noise so that he wouldn't startle her. And for a moment he almost laughed at himself, he had changed so much from the vampire he had once been. Approaching humans, wanting to know their stories, and even help them... well that was something that was certainly new. Bella Swan had most certainly changed him.

"Hello?" he said, his voice low, and calm. "Are you alright?"



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WHO YOU WITH?; aries.
WHERE?; forks high
WHATCHA WEARIN'; wearing this!
POST STATUS; finished.
ANYTHING ELSE?; early morning... *yawns* i don't have the energy to read it over, sorry if there are lots of mistakes or if something doesn't make sense! lol[/center]

[Aries Monroe]

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The moment Aries fingers stopped playing and the tears hit the black and white keys she knew that she should probably just go home and start again the next day. She wasn't confident that tomorrow would be any better. With the way her health was and how bad her depression was she wasn't ever sure if there would be a tomorrow. She was expecting the cancer to kill her or for her to kill her self so she didn't plan for the future. And the little amount of plans she did hold onto were to unrealistic for her. It wasn't fair that she couldn't dream, she never even wanted to try because she knew that what ever she wanted for her self wouldn't happen. She was used to rejection and being alone, ever since her parents died it was all she felt that and pain.

But she didn't want to feel any more, pain wasn't something that a single person should feel all the time. She wanted happiness and she wanted to feel like she belonged some where but she couldn't get that. She had been threw so many foster family's that she stopped trying to get attached to people because she knew that she was going to get ripped away from them. She let out a shaky breath and was about to put her fingers back on the key's until she heard some one. She was nervous playing in front of other people because she thought she wasn't any good and she didnt want to hear that fact from any one but her self. She tugged her sleeves down so they covered the scars on her arms and she used the sleeve of her jacket to dry her cheeks. Her soft watery caramel brown eyes looked up at the person who had spoken and she opened her mouth to talk but couldn't get anything out. She felt a light blush crawl across her delicate pale cheeks and her eyes turned back to the friendly black and white piano keys. That was one of the reasons she loved music. It was always there, it didn't judge and it didn't hurt her. Music was the one thing she had left in life, the one thing she had left to look forward to at the end of the day. It was her life.

"Uh yeah I'm fine." That was all she could manage to get out. She wasn't really sure why this guy was making her nervous but it sent a chill up her spine and she felt like she wanted to crawl under a rock for a few years. Had he seen her crying? She hated it when people saw her cry because then she knew that she was weak and they could find something to use against her. She had built up a tough outer shell but the sicker she got and the more she felt worthless the faster it broke down. She had to keep up the tough girl act to protect her self, because if she wasn't going to protect her self then no one would. "Did you want the piano cause I can totally leave if I'm in your way." She muttered whipping her cheeks again to make sure that there weren't any tears left. She was planning on just going home and sleeping and never waking back up. That was what she hoped for every night but it never happened, she wasnt lucky enough to die in her sleep. She sort of had a feeling that when she did die it would be painful, like the car accident that killed her parents. She still blamed her self for that cause she was the only one that lived threw it and the images from the accident were constantly flashing into her head. It was enough to make any normal person crazy. "I'm Aries." Her eyes finally looked up at him and she realized that he was gorgeous and she sort of felt relaxed almost while looking at him. It was weird.




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POST STATUS:[/color] COMPLETE
TEMPLATE CREDIT TO:[/color] sydknee says!
BANNER CREDIT TO:[/color] person!
LYRICS CREDIT TO:[/color] Demi lovato
ROLEPLAYING WITH:[/color] Edward Cullen
WHERE WE AT?:[/color] Forks High
WORD COUNT:[/color]
LOOKING LIKE:[/color] outfit here!
NOTES:[/color] Crappy yay!
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[BEE]

SUCH A LONELY DAY, AND ITS MINE

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the most loneliest day in my life. such a lonely day should be banned.
it's a day that I can't stand. the most loneliest day of my life.
such a lonely day shouldn't exist. it's a day that I'll never miss

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As Edward stood waiting for the young girl to compose herself he couldn't help but hear her thoughts. And for the first time in a long time he felt guilty about it. It was weird, he'd heard so many different thoughts from so many different people that they all seemed to blur together sometimes. They all didn't really mean anything. When he heard those thoughts it didn't really bother him that it was an invasion of that person's privacy. Right now, for some reason, it did bother him. She had cancer, she was constantly alone, she was dying, she cut herself, and she seemed to be in a constant state of pain. She radiated that pain, it filled every thought she had. It was almost painful to listen to those thoughts. He didn't like it to be honest, he had enough pain to last himself a life time, he didn't want hers too. But he couldn't make himself turn away and ignore her either. She was so young, it was a shame that she had to feel this way.

The image of the girl's doe like brown eyes filled with tears for some reason stood out in his mind. He felt awful for her. She said that she was fine, but her thoughts betrayed her. He knew that she wasn't. She tried changing the subject, she offered to let him take the piano. She was looking for an escape. He had two option. He could let her go and be on her own, or he could stay here and try to make it better. Even thinking that last thought sounded dumb, but it was true. He couldn't leave things the way that they were. He just didn't have it in him. She was waiting for death, inviting it even. No one deserved to go on that way. And if there was anything that he could do to change the way that she felt he would at least like to try it. It would be worth all the trouble if he managed to clear away even a fraction of her pain, because at least it was something.

He was about to speak when he heard her introduce herself. Her name, it was different. He hadn't thought of it ever being for a girl, but it was pretty. It seemed to fit her well. He moved a few small steps closer to the girl and where she sat at the piano bench. "I'm Edward Cullen," he said before pausing and replying to what she'd said before. "You don't have to leave. I didn't actually come here with the intention to play... I heard you playing," he admitted with a small smile on his pale face. "You're very talented," he said before gesturing with his hand to the piano. "Do you mind if I join you?" he asked before taking a seat at the bench. He made sure to stay at the end away from her, but only because he didn't want to scare her. He didn't want to invade her personal space, or risk touching her with his incredibly cold skin. "How long have you been playing?" he asked her as he lifted one of his hands to let his fingers ghost over the keys.




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LYRIC CREDIT TO; system of a down
BANNER CREDIT me!
TEMPLATE CREDIT LIZZ SAY WERD ?!
WORDS?; 544
WHO YOU WITH?; aries.
WHERE?; forks high
WHATCHA WEARIN'; wearing this!
POST STATUS; finished.
ANYTHING ELSE?; watching mr and mrs smith as we speak. haha[/center]

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Aries made a small nod gesturing that she had heard him say his name. For some reason she loved his name, she was a bit of a fairy tale person so when she heard the name Edward she thought of romantic charming princes that rode white horses and rescued damsel's in distress. That thought alone seemed to brighten up her day a little. Why was it that this guy that she had just met and knew nothing about could all ready make her feel better? She wasn't going to complain because she liked it. She wanted to be happy and feel wanted and accepted, even if it was just for a moment. But no one ever cared enough to give that to her, they all just saw her as that sad little girl that couldn't be helped. She could, but no one was willing. That was one of the things she hated the most, every one gave up on her so she gave up on her self. Her life wasn't one worth living.



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BANNER CREDIT TO:[/color] person!
LYRICS CREDIT TO:[/color] Demi lovato
ROLEPLAYING WITH:[/color] Edward Cullen
WHERE WE AT?:[/color] Forks High
WORD COUNT:[/color]
LOOKING LIKE:[/color] outfit here!
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